It's ok

I’ve learned how to pay attention to nature and to enjoy myself among the trees.

The city chaos is overwhelming sometimes and I’m always searching for a little vegetation where I can sit for a while. I miss my hometown. Within a week there’ll be this traditional fair that takes place every year at the same place. I won’t be there. I miss it too.

I remember when I was younger and was always complaining. I’d be constantly writing at my diary how sad and miserable I was. I wanted everything right away, I wanted people to notice me. I wanted to be the brightest. I wanted to feel pretty. I wanted to be part of the pack.

But then you grow up and realize that what was supposed to bring you happiness (because society says so) didn’t necessarily make you happy.

You may have the things but you’ve not learnt how to value them.

People may see you but only for the wrong reasons.

You may be smart but that’s not a guarantee of finding a good job.

You may be an ugly soul trapped inside a beautiful body.

You may be surrounded by people and feel completely alone.

And now you are at your mid-thirties and need to move forward knowing that nothing happened the way you planned.

It's ok. You get what you need, not what you want. And this is also ok.

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